The ups and downs of me

Today is my 8th week of lectures and tutorials. Sometimes I feel passionate, but it can to be distracted when there are times that I feel backward, low self-motivation and ya... all the negative feelings. I bombarded with lots of identity confusion, shifting to another level of foreign education system. I feel that everyone besides me are all smart and clever, while I myself can't even answer my homework assignment. It was yesterday. I feel down, disappointed, frustrated to the fullest and burst. I called my bestfriend. The one and only bestfriend I have in this world. I said I need a friend to talk to. I need advised. Please consult me! I fell sick for 3 days, which I planned to study. We have 3 days free time. I lost all three. I lost them. Frust . Speechless. He picked up my phone. And there was the time that I feel calm. I wiped my tears. Strategize and move on.